wedding day blues

I am SO STRESSED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! School, work, money, car, church, wedding...it's too much. I've decided to quit it all, take Beau, and disappear for about 5 years. We will come back, don't worry, and start all over again. People are stressing me out over this wedding. I am doing the best I can and that is all I know how to do but it's a lot to juggle. I am not getting married for the wedding...I'm getting married because I found the person I want to be with for eternity. I haven't found a florist or a cake person or the stuff for Moab yet....blah. My dress is being altered but it won't be done until September 15. I am so tired and I can't do all of this. If anyone wants to help or has any suggestions for things then please, let me know. I would love to have anyones opinion. I love you guys. I don't mean to complain.

some more!

some engagment pictures...more to come!!

The Proposal!!!!

He proposed and let me tell you, he did a wonderful job! We were supposed to wake up on monday morning and go and paint our new apartment. I woke up way way late because I have been sick so I wake up all night coughing. It is actually pretty lame. Anyway when I woke up, Beau was in the living room playing with the rubix cube and I said "alright babe lets go paint our apartment." Well he had other plans in mind. He really wanted to go rock climbing. I have to admit I wanted to also but I wanted to paint our apartment more than climb rocks. Of course, I am a sucker when it comes to Beau and so he won. He got everything ready and we went to ninth street to climb. He climbed up to hook up the ropes and then repelled back down. He asked if I wanted to climb first and I did because I wanted figure out the climb by myself this time instead of him showing me. So I began to climb. Look at the picture above and see how buff my leg looks! hahhaha Well I got almost to the top and then I was so weak I didn't want to go anymore so I begged him to let me down. He would not do it. I seriously just hung there for a couple of minutes, giving me enough strength to reach the top.

On top I found our little book. While Beau was in Pennsylvania I bought him a book called "I love you because" It is this book that is full of well over 200 things and you just put a little check by the things you love about the other person. The things are random stuff like "I love your ability to negotiate a sticky situation" and so fourth. I was excited because he had filled it out in a different color pen for me! So he lowered me down and I still wasn't sure what was going on. I'm slow. Anyway, he took a picture of me with the book and then bent down to put the camera away. While he was down there he grabbed the ring box and I didn't see it until he kissed me, told me he was proud I made it to the top and all this other mushy stuff (I will spare the details :D) and then he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him! Of course I said yes, how could I not. I then told him that I hope he didn't want to climb because I was too tired to belay him :D hahha what a good girlfriend I am right. The second thing I said was "it's paid off right?" And it is. What a good fiance I have. I love him so so so so much and I can't wait to marry him. The ring is BEAUTIFUL!! Seriously pictures do not do justice. I love it.

Hair Cut Day!

Now that Beau is home we have to go get our engagment pictures taken. But look at that hair. It was longer than I had ever seen it. SO we sat him down, after taking the rubix cube away from him, and began to cut. Thank goodness Tiffany is patient because I think I was a slow learner. This was the beginning of hair cut day. LOOK HOW LONG HIS HAIR WAS!! I guess two months without a hair cut mixed with Beau's mad hair growing makes for bushy bushy hair! Well I wanted to cut it so I knew how because that is just a good thing to know how to do. Needless to say he was so nervous it was cute. I think after the first initial shave he got used to it.
Thank goodness Tiffany is so sweet and so talented because she was by me the entire time. I think that made Beau a little more willing to let me learn because she was there making sure I didn't screw up too bad. Thanks Tiffany I love you!!!

I was nervous to do the blending because we were cutting his hair for our engagment pictures next weekend and I did not want to screw up. Look how hard Tiffany is consentrating. I love the look on Beau's face. It is like shell shock. He isn't quite sure how to handle this.
YEAH all done look how good he looks. Now his hair has one week to become the perfect length for picture. It was so fun. Everyone came down and watched us. I just love the family.

FINALLY!!!

He is finally here FINALLY!!!!! Seriously this is one of those things where you wonder if this day will come and then it does and you don't even know how to handle it. I missed him so much it was crazy. Thank you everyone for putting up with me and my sadness and craziness.

Tomorrow tomorrow I love ya tomorrow

GUESS WHAT!! Beau comes home TOMORROW!!! Holy crap I never ever thought we would make it and we have. Thank goodness. I am starting to feel a little better. Still not great but that is ok. SO I found picutres of the dress I want on the internet and, minus the creepy looking girl, this is it. The one I want isn't white though it is an ivory gold bottom with cream on top. It is beautiful I love it!! Alright please give me a detailed opinon of how you feel about it. Maybe if you are lucky (jess) I will do my hair and makeup like her and pose for a picture myself! hahah

don't count your chickens before they hatch...or whatever the saying is

MAN!! So probably about an hour after I wrote that blog I started to feel a little dizzy. So I drank some water and was sitting on the couch job hunting when I suddenly couldn't breathe. I hate that feeling!! Luckily I had my inhaler so I used it and now I am shaking incredibly bad. I have gone back to bed to try and calm my heart down. Maybe I pushed a little too hard yesterday and today. Well I got bad news and good news today. The bad news is that they decided not to fill the scholarship job they had told me I could have :( that is lame. The good news is I applied for another job that pays 12.00 per hour and it's part time and I don't work weekends. I called them to follow up on my application and she said that the hiring manager is looking over the application and would get back to me very shortly. Oh I hope I hope. I serioulsy am miserable just sitting around. I fell so lazy. The day flys by and I haven't even done anything. I guess it has been a blessing since I got so sick this week but still...not having an income and something to do is the most frustrating feeling. ANYWAY....sorry about my grumblings but things are hopefully looking up. I am going to stay in bed the rest of today...or at least until my heart rate goes down a little and I can breathe again. OH and my car is going to be done tomorrow morning. FINALLY!! I mean this dodge charger is nice and all but it is a huge huge gas hog. :D I will keep you all posted.

I'm better.....and she is sick

I AM HEALED!!!! It is a miracle. Seriously. Jamie I did what you said except times 1000. I took 3000mg of garlic the first day and then 1000mg the second day and I woke up today feeling so much better!! I still have a slight stuffy nose but I just took another 1000mg of garlic and other good things. I feel so great! HOORAY! I was seriously worried I would be so sick when Beau got home.. Thank goodness. Guess what? TODAY IS THURSDAY! AHHH!! He comes home in two days. This is wonderful. Lots of things are happening in the next couple of days. I get my car back, thank goodness, but I have to pay my deductable and buy new tires...not so exciting. It will be okay. I am faithful that things will turn out alright. Money is just money. I am so happy that I am healed. So the other day I got to go see my cousin Jessica. She has multiple sclerosis (spelling?) that they directly traced back to stress and her intake of Equal. I have always been against fake sugar because of this fact but seeing her in a hospital bed made me want to start a campaign against fake sugar. She is 27 and can't see very well and can't talk. Her motor skills are completely inhibited. This disease has made it so she can contract sicknesses really easily. So this time she was in the hospital because she had an infection in her bone. They did surgery yeasterday and I prayed for her to be okay all day. I feel so sad for her. She lives in a hospital bed at all times even at home. She still has that beautiful smile that lights up the room though. I love her. Well, surgery went better than expected so she is doing ok. I wish they had a cure.

sick sick sick

I have a stupid sinus infection!! It has been miserable today. I have done everything I can think of to help it drain and quick pulsing in my head but nothing is helping. Good thing sinus infections are NOT contagious. BLAH!! Does anyone know any good tricks?

A survey I found about me...Have fun!

First name?: Amanda
Middle name?: Leigh
Like your name?: Yes I love my name
Named after anyone?: No lame huh
Any nicknames?: manda, manda may, panda, mandy, babe, sweetie
Age?: 22
Birthdate?: June 17, 1985
Birthplace?: West Valley, Salt Lake City, UT
Time you were born?: I am not sure
Current location?: Ogden, UT
Height?: 5'3...sort of
Like your height?: they make tall shoes for short people
Eye color?: blue
Contacts/glasses?: sadly no, but I have always wanted them...glasses that is, contacts freak me out...gross people actually touching thier eyes? SICK!
Hair color: it is naturally golden brown
Natural hair color?: it is my natural color
Dye your hair often?: I have done it a couple of times when I was younger
Righty or lefty?: Righty

Your favorite...
Type of music?: acoustic, folk, oldies, bluegrass, etc.
Band or singer?: Beatles, Nickle Creek, Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young, actually I don't want to list them all. hahahah
TV show?: CSI Las Vegas
Movie?: Lord of the Rings, Clue, Almost Famous, Empire Records, ETC. Also too many to list.
TV channel?: I am not a big T.V. watcher
Radio station?: I don't know...whatever I turn to
Place to be?: Wherever Beau is, in Moab, on the river, at home
Thing to do?: Be with Beau, play tennis, rock climb, sing, be in musicals, scrapbook, hike, camp, etc.
Food?: italian
Non alcoholic drink?: Water
Alcoholic drink?: no thanks
Animal?: Lab dog, gold fish, etc
Holiday?: Halloween and Christmas
Season?: Fall
Sport?: Tennis
Place to shop?: IKEA and Target
Clothing brand?: I don't have a favorite clothing brand
Scent?: Victoria Secret Heavenly
Restaurant?: Texas Roadhouse
Fruit?: strawberries, watermelon, apples, grapes,pomogranite
Vegetable?: all of them
Fast food restaurant?: I don't really eat fast food
Pizza topping?: TONS of veggie, or garlic chicken, spinich and feta
Ice cream flavor?: I don't eat much ice cream
Magazine?: The New Era :D or I am sad to admit I picked up a Cosmo the other day and I like it
City?: London and Moab
Color?: blue, red, and black
Number?: 7

This or that...
Chocolate or vanilla?: vanilla
Pepsi or coke?: neither
Hot or cold?: hot, always hot!
Black or white?: black
Dog or cat?: dog
French toast or pancakes?: french toast...unless they are banana nut I LOVE banana nut pancakes
French fries or onion rings?: I love french fries
Hamburger or hot dog?: blue cheese burger YUMMY
Pepperoni or sausage?: veggies
McDonalds or Burger King?: gross
50 Cent or Eminem?: who?
Canada or Mexico?: England
Hug or kiss?: yes please!
Movies or TV?: Movies I love movies!
Truth or dare?: Truth

Do you...
Sing in the shower?: Every time I shower I sing like crazy
Like to sing?: LOVE IT!
Like to dance?: only with Beau
Smoke?: gross no
Drink?: nope nope
Cuss?: only sometimes :D
Talk to yourself?: of course I have the best conversations! ;D
Believe in yourself?: Of course!!
Play an instrument?: no I am not that talented
Go to school?: I am almost done!
Go to college?: 2 more semesters!!
Have a job?: not currently but planning a wedding is quite a job
Like your job?: it is a hard job but I like it
Want to get married?: I do...in fact I would like it if I could do that on October Fifth
Want to have kids?: yep but not for about 5 years
Get along with your parents?: sometimes
Get along with your siblings?: I do they are good people
Drive?: I doo even though I got in a wreck

Random...
Do you think you're trustworthy?: very much so
Think your funny?: I am freaking hilarious
Ever toilet papered someones house: no I want to though....
Gone garbage can tipping?: sick who would do that
What are your parents names?: Kevin and Julianne and Scott and Brenda
Siblings names?: Kris, Josh, T.J., Ryan, Mathew, Marisa, Natalie, and Josie
Do you wash your hands frequently?: all of the time I am neurotic about it
How many time a day do you brush your teeth?: at least 3
Collect anything?: I collect R.L. Stine Fear Street Books...hahah silly I know
Ever been in love?:I have
In love right now?: Very Very Very much
What color pants are you wearing right now?: black runnig capri's
How does your hair look?: in a goofy bun
Ever had your heartbroken?: I have
Ever broken the law?: yes in fact....ask me about that one later
Been arrested?:no
Been out of the country?: yeah!!!!
Can you stick your fist in your mouth?: cant say i've tried that
When was the last time you got drunk?: n/a
Do you do drugs?: I pop Ibuprofen often :)
When was the last time you were high on anything?: I am high on life hahahah
Do you prefer the lights on or off?: depends on what i'm doing :) :) :)
Would you ever get plastic surgery?: no...maybe lipo though get rid of my belly :D :D :D
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: garments...I don't wear either though
Do you like to laugh?: EVERY SINGLE DAY
Ever had a bloody nose?: yep
Have you ever caught a fish?: no :(
What was the last thing you ate?: trail mix
What time do you go to bed?: whenever my head finally hits the pillow
What's your favorite color?: yeah we already answered this question
Do you like to give or recieve?: give...but recieving is nice too
Are you obsessed with anything/anyone?: cleanliness and organization
Do you live alone?: no
Do you own a blender?: I do and Beau does too it is in my storage unit
Do you like the snow?: no
Ever been up a mountain?: yes and a love getting there
Ever been rootin'?: ????
Do you like surprises?: yes I TOTALLY LOVE THEM!
Do you pour the little broken off noodles of ramen into the pot? no I don't eat ramen
Do you use paper towel to open the door in public restrooms? yep hahah I have OCD
Have you even fell asleep when you were on the phone with someone? yes Beau calls me at 5:00am every morning
Do you ever play the advertisement games for fun? i don't know what that is
If you could only have 1 flavor of toothpaste forever what would you pick?cinnamon
What's worse, mosquito bites or finding hair in your food? both are pretty horrible
What brand of orange juice do you drink? Simply Orange
If you could eliminate one color from the world, what would it be? puke green
Do you act on spontaneous ideas? It is how I live my life
Describe your favorite pair of underwear? I think that is a little personal wouldn't you say?
Do you like to play on the swingset? sure do
What's your favorite commercial? The Wallgreens commercials are the best
Have you been to a drive-in movie theater? nope sad huh I'm waiting for Beau to get home so we can go
Johnny Rockets or Steak & Shake? I haven't been to either
Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot using your tongue? Yes I can and I can unwrap a starburst :D :D you know what that means? hahhaha


This was long but kind of fun!

It's a "Blah" kind of day, and RECEPTION HELP!

Well today was the laziest day I have had in a while. I really just woke up and piddled around doing nothing important. I was going to go clean our new apartment and get ready to move in it but, I decided not to. :D Maybe one day I will get up enough energy to go. I did however go for a little run. I am trying to get more used to it. Hey if anyone wants to sign up for the Half Marathon in March, in Moab, let me know. I am thinking of doing the five mile run and signing Beau up for the Half. Tiffany if you want to run it with me we can take Conner and Logan in strollers! That could be serious fun...and I will train with you!! Let me know. :D Beau got my package and Jamie's package today. He really needed it. I think that the closer it gets to him coming home (7 more days!) the harder it is for him to stay happy. He just misses everyone. So THANKS JAMIE! Alright...question...where does everyone think Beau and I should have our Ogden reception/open house thingy? Any opinions are welcome, except if you say in a church I will veto quickly. :D

Dress Success!! OH and I miss Beau :)

I have had a great couple of days. It's amazing how sometimes blessings just come pouring in if you are doing what is right. I have been so happy since the day I got up here to Ogden. I mean, bad things have happened (like my wreck) but I have been able to stay happy and be calm during it all. My friend Cassie and her sweet baby boy were in Spanish Fork yesterday so I went to pick them up. I had decided that since we get married in 62 days I should probably find a dress. We went to Provo and found a little shop called "Bridal Center". I thought, because it looked pretty ghetto on the outside, that it wouldn't be a successful place. Cassie drug me inside and said "you don't know until you get in there." Well she was right. The first dress I saw and tried on was it! The minute I put it on I knew that I loved it so much it was perfect. We thought that it would be a good idea to look a little bit more so we kept going and I couldn't find anything that even came close to how beautiful that one was. So that night I went to Kaysville and we went to reception for Chris's best friends daughter. Sounds confusing right? The reception was fun. They had a live band and a ton of food...it was a lot of work. The whole night I just kept thinking about how much I missed Beau and how excited I was that he was coming home so soon. I can't wait to marry him. Only 8 more days and he will be here again! Hooray! Finally. I have been trying so hard to be super supportive about everything but I just miss him so much that sometimes it was hard. But now, he gets to come back so everything will be okay. Anyway, I stayed the night with them and then in the morning we went shopping at a bridal shop in Ogden. I found the EXACT dress there except for one size smaller, which is perfect, and the best part...it's Ivory and Cream! IT IS BEAUTIFUL!! Seriously, I put it on and almost began to cry. It is going to look so gorgeous next to Beau in all black and my bouquet with cream and red and black in it. Perfect!! SO, needless to say I am a happy person. I also got a phone call from Weber saying that they accepted my petition so I don't owe anything for summer tuition. I am just walking on air! I'm a happy girl. Alright this is all for now!

to far away from the one I love

Well as you know I am in PA. at a youth camp for Jews how fun! The other day we were going to lunch with the pool and lake staff. We had a Jew, Catholic, Agnostic, and a LDS/Mormon. and we were just talking how funny it was. What do you get if you put a Jew, Cathlic, Mormon, and a Agnostic? You get Boys Pool Staff. Other then that I have a few young girls following me around. They are so cute every time I see them they say "Hi Beau" in the loudest voice they have, it is so fun. Swimming lessons are so much fun. I love teaching them! The children are so much fun. I will be home on Aug. 11. I am so excited. Alright see you guys soon!

Conner is ADORABLE!!

Well today has been such a good day so far! I realized that in my previous post some people might not know exactly what is going on in our lives individually so I thought I would share. Beau is at a summer camp in Pennsylvania working as a swim instructor and councelor. I had sneaked the idea in his head in about April when we got into an argument and then in June when obviously the argument was far over, I realized he really had to leave. I cried for about a week from the minute I put him on the flight. Let's just say I miss him a little bit :). Anyway he is working out there and really enjoying it. He called me today and I have got him hooked on Harry Potter. He is in the third book now and really enjoys it. I am excited that he loves them as much as I do. I promised myself that because he is reading Harry Potter I will start doing something he loves so...I have been trying to go running. It is really hard to get up motivation to go but I think I will enjoy it more when I can run with him. 10 more days and he comes home. We are very excited. I guess he has girls chasing him all over camp. I think it is adorable. He is enjoying himself very much but is ready to be done. I have had a crazy summer just trying to get to one place. I am finally here in Ogden getting ready to go to school. Jamie's in-laws were here and I fell in love with them! Seriously they are so wonderful. Andy's little sister Lindsey is so great. I honestly stepped out of my car and she gave me a huge hug and we just clicked into place it was wonderful. Also his sister Anya and I just clicked. She is hysterical. I miss Jamie and Andy and their boys. We talked about the cute boys the whole time and it just made me miss them more!! I was jealous because Beau got to see them in July and I have to wait a little bit longer than that. Ewan, her youngest, just turned one! I have a link to her blog. Everyone should go see how long his hair was before she cut it! YIKES! He is so adorable. SOOO today I got to babysit the most adorable, fun, easy-going, baby boy in the world. CONNER! YEAH! I can't wait to be his Aunt. I can't wait to be BOTH Conner and Logans aunt. He was so wonderful. We played legos and watched T.V. He was so wonderful. Then Tiff took me to get my rental car and I love her. We talked and talked the entire time. I have never felt nervous or anything around her. I'm just myself and that is so great. She is such a wonderful mother. I just love her. So Tiff if you are reading this, I LOVE YOU!! And I can't wait to hang out with you again it was a blast. ANYWAY this blog is long....So I will end it! :D