Kindergarten

Yesterday Gracie went to her first day of Kindergarten. I have been back and forth on sending her because of many different reasons but, in the end she was so desperate to go that I just enrolled her. Gracie loves to learn, she loves structure, and she loves meeting people. It was really a win win situation. I feel like she will blossom and become even more brilliant than she already is but, it's really hard for mommy. This morning as I got her ready to go, she was so excited she could barley stand it. They have full day kindergarten here in Maryland and so I thought for sure it would be too much for her but, she is in heaven. It's hard to let go as a mother. It's hard to not be able to control all of her social interactions anymore, not be able to control what she is learning at all times, and not be able to protect her from harm 24 hours a day. I know this is a necessary right of passage in life but, I'm not a big fan. I never knew that I was such a helicopter mom until today when Beau loaded her into the car and took her to school. So I will breathe and learn to let go just a little bit during the day but then hug her extra hard in the evening to make up for our time apart.