Heart Broken

Lacie Jo with newly born Gracie Leigh and Me.

I have a wonderful friend named Lacie Jo Robinson.  She is one of those people that is nice to everyone.  She radiates love, kindness, service, charity, beauty, and perseverance.  Ever since the first time I met her in the old 27th ward we have been great friends.  We were in the same classes and so we got to sit by each other and become close.  Lacie is the type of person you aspire to be like.  She is truly an amazing person.  Lacie and I graduated together and traveled to Disney Land together.  We are like soul sisters.  We were meant to be friends. 

When I found out I was pregnant I struggled a lot.  Lacie was one of the first people we told and she supported me through it all.  I had a lot of opposition, especially amongst family, about my pregnancy but I always had a shoulder to lean on with Lacie.  We always joke that I named Gracie after Lacie :) Gracie has loved Lace since the very beginning of her life. 

As I sit here and hold my beautiful little ten month old baby I can't help but choke back the tears.  My heart is just breaking.  This wonderful woman I have told you about has gone through more in her short 25 years than anyone I personally know.  She has not only had to bury one child, but two.  It breaks my heart to think of the pain and turmoil she has had to suffer.  I feel like Lacie deserves to be a mother more than any woman I know.  She is already to a mother to so many.  She takes care of everyone's children as if they were her own children.  It takes a special woman to do that. 

I don't know what the Lord has planned for Lace.  Sometimes, when I pray for her, I just wonder why someone would have to go through all of this.  She must be being prepared for something miraculous.  She already is miraculous.  What I do know is that her angel babies are waiting for her.  They were born on this earth perfect and they returned to Heavenly Father just as perfect.  They were more righteous that this world was prepared for.  They didn't need to be tested because they were elect spirits of God.  So why must it hurt so bad?  I wish I would take some of the pain away for Lacie.  She doesn't deserve the heartache and trials.  So all I can do is pray and ask that you all pray too.  Pray for Lacie and Tayce.  They are two of the most gentle, kindhearted people you would ever meet in your life.  Know that if asked, they would do the same for you.

So today I will complain a little less that my daughter is teething and crying all day, and I will sit with her on the floor and hold her a little closer knowing that I am very lucky to get to be a mother.  And I will say another prayer for Lacie, Tayce, and little Alice who returned home to be with our Heavenly Father and her brother so they can wait together for their momma and poppa to come to Heaven and be with them for eternity.